There’s only so much you can learn in one place
The more that you wait,
The more time that you waste
I’m sorry - what did you today?
Oh, I see.
(First day. I apparently need to set my goal a lot higher. I didn’t even work out proper today.)
4 weeks.
4 weeks and I’m not even entirely sure how I feel about certain things,
minus the part where I am certain this is exactly what I need.
Minus the part where I am certain it’s where I’m suppose to be.
It’s one of those precious things,
one of those things so important and full of magic that you’re afraid to speak it.
The words are struggling behind your teeth and your blood is hot beneath your skin. But you want - you need - to keep it a secret. You fear that if you let those words escape that somehow you will break it. It will stop being magic. It will disappear and leave you hollow.
I’m struggling with the fear that I’ve said too much already.
I need this more then anything.
”..Oh, by the way. My read receipt came back..”
“Chris read the email yesterday. It’s 8am there.. I’m giving him until noon tomorrow before I contact the west coast regional manager. This company has always been open for transfer requests, especially in a case where at any of these sites you could have a dramatic impact on their performance. He should be fighting for you to be there.”
I cannot get over how aggravating this man has become in my life.
I have the numbers, I have the performance and I go above and beyond what is expected of me. I’m on a fast track and I’m motivated towards any and all promotions.
And all that stands in my way right now is you.
